Unforgivable Mistake

p/s : sayang I am happy for you.. Thanx for today, I appreciate u still wanna look at my foolish face. Even there's no smile from you. I have done my best to hide my sadness. It has been a week i cried every nyte. I just can't forgive myself,i am a jerk! What else I can do? I can only try,try n keep on trying to have you back like before. Even it looks like there's no hope. I won't give up coz I love you sooo much more than myself :') I respect yr decision..i think u've thought that is the best for us rite? Sayang,,i only have u beside my mom. I am sorry for letting you down till dis bad. But i am too afraid, i was lost at dat moment. I try to get you, but i am not dat strong even till now. Please forgive me(if i should kneel to you,i would do) My heart is not important anymore.. I just want a forgiveness from you. Not an ordinary forgiveness,but from the bottom of yr heart. Hmmm,.