A sorrow week =(

It has been 3 days (19th-21st) we all didn't talk so much. I didn't txt him for 2 days coz I was so frustrated. But we managed to get back. I was so happy n i missed him a lot (fever3) Like what ppl always said '2 jiwa klu da b'satu sukar utk dipisahkan' Yeah..but all of the things went upside down again. He found out dat i contacted his brother. OMG! I was so shocked. He scold me like hell. He pointed his finger to my face,yelled at me :'( Hmm,,it's not what I want. I was so confused at dat tyme. I only think how to makesure he will be ok if I am not around 1day. I was so scared to tell him the truth. N after he told me he has chosen his life path,, I feel so insecure,,since I've been threatened. I don't want to involve himself even I don't have anyone to ask for a help!! Now i managed to accept him whoever he is. But nah,,now I am the one who just ruined it. I was so upset wif myself. What more wif him =( He said i made him like an enemy to his family. N also i backstab him,,make fool of him. What should i do now? I don't deserve him huh?? Or actually I don't deserve to be love at all. I never want dis thing to happen but I am just a weak girl..